What an emo

"Once you feel you aren't being challenged enough, that's when you need to start making challenges for yourself.." -Collette Williams (OFL Teacher)

I guess she's right. She was my teacher just before I gave up school completely. I went to give her my books and pick up my transcripts because I'm going to start a new program at Granada. Online school. I think it's pretty sweet because even though I'm going to be taking school online, I will still have the option of taking classes in the actual school. I'm also allowed to be on any sports team or performing arts. I can go to all the dances and participate in everything. So even though I will be home schooling I will still get the high school experience that wouldn't have been offered to me anywhere else.

Other than starting school. I quit all my jobs. =D
It's one thing to be 17 and have a part time job, but two full times was a bit much. I'm less stressed out and have some more breathing room and this way I can really focus on finishing up with school.

I'll start up school for sure next week. I'm really angry at myself for not pushing myself when I should've. Now I have to spend an extra year in HS, but instead of just giving up and feeling sorry for myself I should just get over it and finish.

Well anyways HELLO KITTY TIME!!

So far in 07'

I haven't sang
I haven't danced
I haven't written one word that means something to me

I haven't receieved calls from old friends
I haven't gone anywhere outside of granada hills
I haven't even cleaned my room, not that it's that dirty.

I haven't spoke out or stuck up for myself. My tummy hurts and I always feel like I wanna cry. I haven't achieved any dreams, but I can always make another nightmare and another tear. I'll never know why I messed up. I wish I had someone to help me out someone who could've told me I really wasn't doing the right thing. I wish that someone had at least a little control over me.

But wishes never do come true do they?