Okay..

I'm trying reallly hard to update everyday. Well actually I'm not really trying because I'm all excited that I have a real blog so I can't wait to update it.

I really miss regular school and friends and choir and all that stuff. I look back now and hate myself for giving up so easily and being so eager to change everything about my life. I look back and I know that I could've gotten into any college I dreamed of, but I have this horrible disease. Laziness.

All the dreams for my future have all been changed. I wanted to go to Boston Conservatory, but now I've reduced myself far enough to simply CSUN. I'm just tired of giving up and everyone thinking that I'm just going to just give up again. I really want to prove myself. For once, I want someone to be proud of me instead of disappointed. I'm tired of knowing I messed up and not doing anything to fix it.

I just wanna finish, be done, and be proud.
But most of all I want to do what I love most.