My 2006 Melody

There’s always that one person that will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming cause you’re blinded from the start
Know that you’re that one for me, it’s clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby
You'll always be my boo

I love you and I need you baby
I love you, I do need you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my boo
Boy ya know I'm crazy over you

I haven't got a clue if you're the one
But I like you & ooh I like how you make me feel
I wanna do this right
Don't wanna waste this night
But I'm drowning
Drowning in your love
Bring me flowers and talk for hours
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel

Vague sound of rain
Pierces through my song again
But I get distracted by the way his toes move when he plays
So I let it burn
I just poured my heart out
There's bits of it on the floor
But I'll take whats left of it and rinse it under cold water
And call him up for more

Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember my life without him
I think I did have good days
And why can't you just hold me

And I dance to move only you
And I fight to kiss and make up
I scream for some silence
I laugh to laugh for once
Not there so you notice I'm gone
And I breathe cause its necessary
And I sigh when I see the moon
I dream to make sleep less boring
Until there was you

I told myself that today was gonna be the day
No more excuses cause I knew exactly what to say
Was gonna make my play but just like yesterday
My mind erased and I let the moment slip away
Another night got me sitting here all on my own
Picking up the phone but I can't get passed the dial tone
Racking my brain going insane again and again
I can't keep going this way

Mi amor
I'm not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words
Would be best to best explain
How I feel in my heart
What I feel more each day
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to see how to say
How I love you so

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

I'm thinking its a sign
That the freckles in our eyes
Are mirror images and when we kiss
They're perfectly aligned
I have have to speculate
That God himself did make us
Into corresponding shapes
Like puzzle pieces from the clay
And true it may seem like a stretch
But it's thoughts like this that catch
My puzzled head when you're away
And I am missing you to death

Bye Bye 06

Well 2006.

You didn't suck so bad.
You weren't great but,
05' was definately the worst.

As for New Years Resolutions.

I wanna lose 30 lbs by my b-day.

& I wanna start saving money.
So I made that page on kaboodle and instead of buying everything I want all in one paycheck I'm going to buy one thing per paycheck.

Yep.

Also I wanna post everyday.
But I don't wanna make too many resolutions.

xoxo
miss.katie

I Hate Water!

So I'm going to diet on Iced Tea and non-fast food.
I'm going to bike for an hour every morning and take a 30 minute walk at night.
I'm going to bike everywhere I need to go.
Then when I start going to Pierce I'm going to be on swimming.

Skippy is my new walking buddy.
I also think that I have insomnia.
It's like I'm sleepy but I can't sleep and by the time I get to sleep its like 6 in the morning. It's really annoying because I don't have time for anything.

Ricardo's Birthday is in four days!! YAYA!

Well I guess that's just about it.

xoxo
miss.insomniac

Wanna get me something for Christmas?

Wanna get me something for Christmas, but don't know exactly what.

http://www.kaboodle.com/lilbabykatie89/lilbabykatie89s-wish-list.html

Go there to find my wish list with plenty of items that spark my interest

Rawr?

I'm tired of people calling me fat. Especially when I'm not that fat. Yeah I could lose some weight, but like I always say I'd rather be fat and happy than skinny and miserable. Then I'm just contradicting myself.

Rawr.

It sucks. But I do need to lose some weight. I'd be happy if I lost a good thirty pounds. Then, I'd be more than happy with myself. I hate be lazy and unmotivated.

SOMEBODY MOTIVATE ME!!

I'm going to make another goal that will probably end up dead with the others, but here it goes.
By March 10 or earlier I will successfully lose 30 lbs. Which is 10 lbs per month. Which is 2.5 lbs per week. Weigh-ins will be every Sunday when I wake up. There will be no more Del Taco food, even if it is free, and no more eating out, unless I reach my 2.5 lb weight goal on that Sunday. It will begin today when I wake up and there will be severe details about my struggle goal every single day. I'm going to do every little thing in my power to lose this weight and if I don't then I will just take some stupid dietary supplement haha.

xoxo
miss.determined.katie

No More Paradise

Have you ever forgotten how to breathe?
Forgotten how to speak, hear, and see.
Where each breath is pure unbearable pain
And the voices in your head drive you insane.

You realize you're no longer in paradise
And you'll have to make every sacrifice
Just to breathe in
And out.

Have you ever forgotten how to smile?
Lost your patience for more than a while
Where everyone is laughing at you
And all your love turns untrue

You realize you're no longer in paradise
And you'll have to make every sacrifice
Only to move.
Only you.

So if there are any of you who want to buy me something beautiful and expensive.

Here are some fantabulous gift ideas.

;D

This lovely Dark Grey "Staircase"

Can be found at Hollister Co.

Or you can simply click on it.

Only $99.50 =P

This lovely bit can also be found at Hollister Co.
Also it can be clicked upon
$34.50

Hot Topic
Bloo Shirt
Everyone knows or should know that Bloo is my good luck symbol
$19.
You know you want to click it

Victoria's Secret
Stawberries & Champagne Scent
Lotion & Body Spray
Juss Click it..

Muchos Gracias
&&
Good Morning

miss.christmas.crazed.katie

Wow

I've just been thinking a hella lot about how this year has gone by so fast, and how much I've changed and such. I mean I'm in the longest relationship I've ever been in. It'll be 10 months on December 18 (Ricardo's Bday.) Which in reality is nothing at all. My interests, tastes, and values are all changing as well.

Wow. Only one month left until 2007. All my old friends are graduating and I'm 17 and work at Del Taco. So now I'm going to make some goals, realistic or not, just for the sake of feeling like I have something to live for and be proud of.

1. Successfully be attending Pierce College as a full time student by 01/02/07 when the Winter Intersession starts.
2. Work a full time consistent schedule with my own shift at Del Taco by 01/01/07.
3. Go to the Gym every morning, start eating healthier, and actually have "me time," sometimes.
4. Be at a healthy weight by 06/01/2007 or earlier.
4. Successfully speak spanish by 01/01/08.
5. Open another savings account which will be for a car that I will have by 09/07/07. The savings account will then become for education and emergency only.
6. My already active savings account will become "Katie's Shopping Savings" and everytime the amount reaches $400 I will spend $250 on myself. The rest will be for Christmas and other Holidays.

I have this problem with sleeping

It's that..I can't
I dunno. I've tried everything to relax. I even spent 11-6 at the mall.
Blew $200 bucks on clothes.

I had the day off today and tomorrow.
So I can sort some major life issues out.

I deleted 89.9% of the numbers in my cell phone and now its empty.
Oh well.
I didn't even remember who some of the people were.

Well I'm going to go look some crap up.
Later.

miss.insomniac

*Sigh*

Today I had a pretty crappy day.
I'm just getting crap from everyone.
From my boss, from Ricardo, from my mom, from my sister, and even from myself.

Bleh.

*Sigh*

That's Miss Shift Manager to all of you now.

Getting paid 9.50/ hour

I think.

Which is way definately a good thing since Christmas is coming.

Chyeah.

I really dunno what to say.
So um.

Booya.

xoxo
miss.hungry.katie

Beetchez

I'm looking for a part time second job.
Chyeah.

If anyone can help out.

I'm pretty happy

I got the second highest score on the 130 multiple choice question test that determines whether or not you're going to go to the classes to become certified and the highest score on the written portions test. YAY ME!

So yeah.
Next Monday I'm off to Burbank at 8am to go to those classes.
Eight hours of them.
Paid too.
Then I have to go to actual work.
Mucho horas para Katherina.

Yeah.
Well I'm pretty sleepy.
Later.

xoxo
miss.happy.pants.katie

Dear Anonymous..

Anonymous Asks "What's the point of getting a GED when you're a senior?"

Dear Anonymous,
First off I'd just like you to know that you are lame for commenting anonymous and trying to start drama with me, but whatever. I'm not the drama freak that I used to be. Anyway, the point of getting my GED when I'm a senior is that I don't have any time or money. So what is the point in wasting my time in school, which I didn't really care about enough to get the grades to get into college when I could take the GED, possibly score high on, and just get it over with. Second, I'm a poor ass and if you were my friend, which you most likely aren't, you would know this. I don't have money to go to college, my mom definately doesn't have the money to put me in college. SO pretty much I have to work full time to be able to afford it even if I have financial aid. So Anonymous, I'd like to see you try to balance school and a full time job at age 16 and 17. Not too easy. So with that you can go die now. Thank you.

xoxo
miss.pissed.off.katie

I've been busy

Working, sleeping, eating, studying for shift manager classes.
That's pretty much my life as I know it.
I'm just trying to squeeze in time for some other things.
Like updating my blog haha.

I have too much to worry about right now.
Well I need to go get my check from work.

Later
xoxo
miss.lazy.katie

Sad Day

Photograph each day
So we can live forever
Sit in the light
To make the dark a little darker
I dance to move only you
And I fight to kiss and make up
I scream for some silence
I laugh to laugh for once
Not there so you notice I'm gone
And I breathe because its neccessary
And I sigh when I see the moon
I dream to make sleep less boring
Until there was you
-Juliet Simms "Unhearted"

Well.

I did end up going to the zoo with Ricardo. I got some crap from my mom, but not as much as expected. Pedro (my manager) is finally giving me a break at work. It's nice, but boring. My life is work so now that I have days off I'm bored as hell.

I saw Santa Clause 3 at the Northridge Mall today with my mom, sister, and Ricardo. I hate going there because I always see people there that I know. Today I saw Alex S, Stephanie Pardo, Jacob, and almost Stephen. The movie was okay.

Now my sisters getting ready to go to her first actual party and I'm nervous for her, but whatev'
Not that much is going on. I'm probably going to go to Target or Walmart with my mom.

That's about it.

xoxo
miss.bored.katie

Seems like I'm always caught in the middle

So Ricardo has been on my case about going to the LA Zoo with him because he's never been to a zoo and he loves animals. So I finally got the day off for tomorrow, which by the way is my first day off in a month, so I could finally go to the zoo with him. Now, yesterday my mom comes to me and says I NEED YOU FOR VOLLEYBALL ON WEDS! I'd already told her I'm going to the zoo and then today she tells Ricardo that he has to wait.

Getting a day off is a dream come true so if Ricardo has to wait for my next day off that could be quite a while from now.

So if I don't go to the zoo he's going to be sad and if I don't ref the volleyball game I'll never hear the end of it. So either way I lose and it's not fair.

And my mom just bitched at me about how it's always about what I want and how I'm a spoiled brat and never do anything to help other people. It really freakin' sucks. I mean I already cancelled my teams practice so I can go to the zoo and now she wants me to ref. Total freakin' unfairness.

I HATE BEING IN THE MIDDLE!

I can't wait until I'm 18 and free.

Then I can get my license.

And my mom won't have any say in anything.

xoxo
miss.angry.katie

I'm back!

I've been going through my pathetic Livejournal life. Maybe I'll start printing out every entry and putting them all in one binder and publish it. Hahaha I'll call it "Katherine: The Drama Queen." I'm glad that I've kept LJs since my freshman year. It's so fun to look back to see whats changed.

I live for memories.

I'm totally exhausted from work. I've been working double shifts. Sleep is only tiring me out more. I have another double shift tomorrow then on Wednesday my baby and I are going to the zoo. Then I work a night shift. Fun Fun. I can't help it I love my work, even though it's exhausting.

Everyone keeps putting me down about how Ricardo treats me bad, but I think he treats me like a princess. I don't see what he's doing wrong. Well sometimes haha, but I love him so I can't help it. I don't care what people say. It's what I say. And I say boo yah beetchez you're just jealous of me and my baby!! Well sometimes.

Well I'm pretty sleepy.
So I better catch up on my sleep hours.

xoxo
miss.katie

My Three Dream Cars

Dream Car #1

2005 Suzuki Aerio Sedan

=]

This car makes me super ultra happy

Dream Car #2

Bright Red Volkswagen Jetta

This car makes me happy as well

Dream Car #3
Chevy Camaro
This car make me drool
But I'd rather have a car that made me happy

Okay..

I'm trying reallly hard to update everyday. Well actually I'm not really trying because I'm all excited that I have a real blog so I can't wait to update it.

I really miss regular school and friends and choir and all that stuff. I look back now and hate myself for giving up so easily and being so eager to change everything about my life. I look back and I know that I could've gotten into any college I dreamed of, but I have this horrible disease. Laziness.

All the dreams for my future have all been changed. I wanted to go to Boston Conservatory, but now I've reduced myself far enough to simply CSUN. I'm just tired of giving up and everyone thinking that I'm just going to just give up again. I really want to prove myself. For once, I want someone to be proud of me instead of disappointed. I'm tired of knowing I messed up and not doing anything to fix it.

I just wanna finish, be done, and be proud.
But most of all I want to do what I love most.

Happy to go to work??

I'm usually kinda happy to go to work, but now I'm like really excited.

You see, I'm training to be a shift manager. Training involves classes and certification, and I get to do all this stuff and today I work 7-12:30Am and I get to do a shift checklist, cleaning log, inventory, and I get to train a new girl. Which is pretty sweet. I mean I'm actually getting what I deserve out of work at Del Taco unlike at Burger King where I got nothing, despite the compliments that got called in to corporate office. Grawr. I hate Burger King.

Yeah so now I'm just waiting to go to work which is pretty lame.

Today was pretty uneventful. I watched soccer with Ricardo, made cookies, and um... yeah that's about it.

Well I guess I'll be off.

xoxo
miss.katie

So here it is..

So I finalllly did it.
I'm actually making an actual blog.
Amazing huh?

I'm tired of the whole friends only livejournal thing. My boyfriend is too. So now I've made a blog for the world to see. I'm finally at that point in my life where I'm not doing stupid things that I need to hide from everyone. So yeah.

So here's some stuff I feel is necessary to write at the beginning of a new journal blog type thang. My names Katie. I work at Del Taco. I'm training to be a shift manager which is pretty sweet. I'm in school as a senior, but I find it too easy and unnecessary like every other 17 year old kid out there. So I plan on taking the CAHSPE (California High School Proficiency Exam) followed by a GED exam so I can just move on to CSUN and major in music education. My boyfriend's name is Ricardo and we've been together for about 8 1/2 months, so thats pretty cool. Our nine month anniversary is on 11.18.06. He works at Burger King. Anyone who's reading this will probably be reading alot about him and seeing alot of pictures of him.

I'm pretty much the average 17 year old. I dye my hair too much, think most of what my mom says is wrong, I'm moody, every little thing can piss me off like no other, I have an obsession with the internet and I go over my minutes on my cell phone, I like to argue, and of course I know absolutely everything there is to know about everything.

I like to write, sing, dance, and read. I loathe watching TV, expect for an episode of Fairly Oddparent here and there and my favorite novela Sonadoras. I understand 99.9% of Spanish and speak about 50%. It just never comes out right.

My life is pretty uneventful and boring. I choose not to have friends because friends always end up hurting me. I feel the only people who I need are myself and Ricardo.

Well..I guess that's about it.

xoxo
miss.katie